Here we go again!

Okay guys, I have not written in a WHILE! It's because I'm a jerk. I have been doing NOTHING worth blogging about.... or so I thought! Last week, I didn't swim and I ate at a buffet and stuffed myself so full, my pants didn't fit for 3 days; but guess what happened? I lost another 1.5 pounds that week! I guess I'm doing better than I thought. :) I still have about 6 weeks until doomsday, (Alaska!) and I really seriously hope to be 15 pounds lighter in that time. So! Yet again... after taking a not so much needed break, I am climbing right back up on that wagon and buckling down! Smaller portions, less carbs, NO DAIRY! I've been eating the occasional cheese now and then, but I haven't had any cows milk, sour cream, yogurt or other forms of dairy for about a month! Maybe that's why I'm still losing weight...? In any case, I haven't given up yet, folks! I am on the radar again! Thanks to those of you who show support... 11 followers! Gettin up there! :)

Day 48: Can I get a HELL YEAH!!!!

Okay, so ummmm.... weigh day? YES! I was SOOO suprised! Cause I weighed myself at like, 4pm after I had eaten lunch AND cheated on my 'snack' of two mini bags of mini eggs....(girl scout cookies, mini eggs... it never ends, does it?!) I'm down 2.4 Ibs since THURSDAY!!! Can I get a HELL YEAH?! Woot!!! I'm so excited! And now I feel super duper bad for not swimming today. :( I actually only had the temporary pass to the YMCA and it expired on Saturday. They want a down payment plus first months, but I'm sort of addicted to saving my money lately, and I can't bring myself to pull the funds from my savings account, so I'll just have to wait until I get paid on Friday. Until then, I'll do walking and more Wii. Speaking of which, I did AWESOME at the Wii today. If anyone can beat my 866 spins on SuperHulaHoop, please let me know. I'll think you're lying, but we can most def have a hula hoop play off sometime. For shizzle. Eating wise I did supa dupa. Matthew and I did some paper mache masks today, and that was a lot of fun, but we had to go to the grocery store for some balloons, and (of course), it's easter season! And there are mini eggs EVERYWHERE!!! Gahh!!! Last year, I bought like, 4 monster bags, hoping that would last me until they were gone from all the stores, and I ended up eating them all in a week. THAT'S RIGHT. NO JOKE, and NO bueno, either. :( But this year, I was trying to avoid them altogether....until the balloons were in the same aisle. (EEeek!) So, the ginormous bags were on sale for like, $4 each along with the Robins Eggs, so I grabbed both bags, hardly thinking at all. It was totally like a reflex. Then, I saw the medium bags of mini eggs on sale for 2 for $6 along with the reeces eggs, which I ADORE as well, so I put down the ginormous bags and just picked out two of the mediums. Then, feeling SOOO bad about it, but knowing I just couldn't pass them by, I turn to find these teensy tiny single serving bags of mini eggs for just 2 for $1. Thank the Lord! He is kind, and he has mercy on me. :) I did grab 6 bags, but I put them all away (out of sight, out of mind, right?) And I'm so happy about the tiny bags because I'm less likely to tear open all six bags at once and eat them all; the bigger bags just make it so much easier to eat lots of them. :( So I gave in and ate two bags, but that's not so bad, I guess. Hopefull I can just AVOID them until after Easter. Anyway, breakfast was a bowl of the Bear Naked Banana Nut cereal and almond milk. For lunch I ate a delicious sandwich made of herb infused turkey, cheese and avocado. I also had apple slices dipped in pb. Dinner was just a pb & chocolate shake, but suprisingly, here it is 9pm and I'm still not hungry. YAY. I think it's the adrenaline of knowing I lost 2.4 Ibs this weekend. I'm so skinny. :)

Day 47

PAM!!! Thanks for your comment! It was so sweet, I read it like, 12 times before I wrote todays blog! Comments like yours are what keep me committed to my blog. I love you and your support....and you can tell BOB that he is TOTALLY missing out! :)

Weigh day today! WOOT!!! I'll post my 'success' (premature thinking is ALWAYS a good idea...) tomorrow. I did awesome yesterday. Started with a banana and water for breakfast. NOT ideal, but better than nothing, and I was running out the door... why, you ask? I'll tell you why! I went to church! GO ME! Hahaha... for the first time in almost a year, I went to CHURCH! It was actually awesome. The sermon was all about abortion and politics. A new church, with a pastor named Odor. Pastor Odor. Baha! But he didn't stink! He was great! I went to IHOP for lunch after, and I was SUCH a good girl this time, ordering a mushroom and spinach omelet (I didn't even eat the whole thing... it was HUGE) and a side plate of fruit. Half way through my fruit, my 3 yr old date started helping himself, so we shared it. Hahah!! It was cute tho, cause he kept saying, "Hey look! Another gwape!" And ate all my 'gwapes'. Then I teased him that he must not like watermelon, and of course, he then tackled all of those too. Hee hee....kids. I didn't eat dinner until like, 10 o'clock at night...(bad me...) but it was SOOOO good when I did! 2 oz of roasted pork tenderloin with roasted small potatoes and steamed broccoli. You know me... meat and potatoes are ALWAYS a treat! I didn't swim, cause the pool is closed Sundays and no park either...I'm a bad dog mommy. :( We're going on Wednesday no matter WHAT the weather is. I feel so bad!

Day 46

Eeeeghads! I had SUCH a good day today! For starters, TITO: I swam an extra FIVE laps. :) 35 laps in the pool today! WOOT! But I may have been a little lax on some of those laps, since it took me 50 minutes to do all 35. :( BAD, cause the pool is closed tomorrow. I should have swam 70 laps. Or 100! I got this new Bear Naked cereal/granola stuff with dried banana slices...SO GOOD! I had 2 bowls with soy milk, which only added to about 400 calories; and today I took a little trip to the local grocery store to get some magazines...(I've been doing some artwork lately...mainly collages for McKenna in the form of enormous envelopes)...and I happened upon the diet book section. There was a book swearing up and down that you can eat whatever you want (donuts, ice cream, pancakes, steak, BREAD), WHATEVER! As long as you eat it before 9am. It's called the 'BIG BREAKFAST DIET'. I'm all about eating tons of food, so I thought that might be the diet for me. But then I saw this book called 'Eat This, Not That: the Restaurant Guide' and it showed a really yummy looking burger that was 1100 calories, and then Red Robins Guacamole burger for only 600 cals! And it said to eat it! So? I was all.... 'Okay, sure!' :) But I didn't. I resisted...for then. I had it for dinner instead. Baha! But wait, I'm getting ahead of myself. I ended up going home and having 'the usual', but this time I had it on a whole wheat tortilla; OM-FREAKIN-G. For reals, It was sooooo good, guys. I almost cried. I LOVE sandwiches! Does anyone NOT love sandwiches?! So... I went on a date. This guy took me to dinner tonight, and I said, 'why not go to Red Robin?' ....I'm so bad. So we go to Red Robin. And I looked phenomenal!!! :) So Louis (our waiter) comes to take our order and I look over at my date, (remember: this is a FIRST date), and I say, 'I'm totally getting a burger. Is that breaking rules? The girls supposed to get a salad on the first date, right?' He started laughing and said, 'No, I think that's HOT!' Hahahaha!!! Thank God, cause I REALLY wanted that guacamole burger! Hee hee hee....

Day 45

I broke the chain!!!! I didn't go swimming yesterday. :( My cousin called me while I was on my way and she was all, 'we never hang out anymore!!!' and I was all, 'you're right' and she was all, 'come over! let's do stuff!' and I did. Spent the day with my cousin. It was really fun tho. But I started the day so well with a vanilla protein shake and all. Then we went to Sonic for lunch and I just LOVE the chicken toaster sandwich. And I got it. :( Okay FINE I also got an ice cream. But I skipped dinner. Somehow I wasn't hungry at the end of the day. :( Can you believe how short this blog is? It's like I'm jipping you.

COMBO!!! Days 43 & 44

Okay, so I usually post the day after, but since it's 11:10 at night, I haven't posted for yesterday yet and I'm not eating anything else, you get both days rolled into one. :) So.... I finally got my bagel with cream cheese. It's true. I've been eating WAY too many bagels lately, but who can help it? I mean, really? They're delish! I also had two strips of bacon. THEN... I swam 30 laps. In 40 minutes. PROGRESS!!! That's 10 minutes away from my goal! I'm such a rockstar. Totally gonna be skinny like, TOMORROW. Lunch was possibly the awesomest I've had in forever, but I bought enough ingredients so that I'm going to be eating it for about the next week, so when I say 'I had the usual for lunch today', you'll know it was this: a sandwich. But the greatest sandwich on Gods green earth. Okay: 2 slices 45 calorie SaraLee whole wheat bread, 2T mayo, 1T mustard, 1 vine ripe tomato, 1/2 avocado (ABOCATHO!), 1 slice colby jack cheese, 2 oz lean turkey breast and kale. I steam the kale VERY slightly...just until it's that beautiful bright green color....(YUM).... I'm telling you people, Subway ain't got shit on me. THIS is a sandwich. Steamed asparagus and a glass of soy or almond milk and this is one very ROUND meal. And by round, I mean my tummy hurts when I'm done packing it all in, but I'm okay with that. :) Seriously tho. I usually spell 'EAT ME' with the mustard. Just a little joke....
So dinner was....what was dinner? Oh yeah. It was pizza. 3 pieces. How could I forget?! I was so mad at myself! AND 2 cookies! Crapola. Whatever. I did extra Wii.
Okay, but TODAY was... better? Yes, better. Because I did the Wii in the morning (again) and guess what?! I've lost another 1Ibs! This means the swimming really is paying off! Imagine what would happen if I actually ate right..... scary. Anyway! It still says I'm 'obese', so screw the Wii. I had to be to work earlier today AND the girls took FOREVER this morning and were late for school which left me with only 30 mins to swim. I tried my best, but only did 20 laps. Bummer. I'll have to make up the other 10 tomorrow. No biggie. I'm so excited tho, cause I did freestyle the whole time with absolutely no breaks. NONE. Not a one. Just a straight 20 laps right in a row. I mean, can YOU do that?! Seriously, I want someone to come swimming with me so I can show you how much better I am at it. Come on, I'm a fat girl. I need this. Volunteers? I always think of funny things to put in my blog while I'm in the water, and I never remember them when I'm at my computer. Lame.
Food wise, I did REALLY well... until Dawn brought me cookies. You guessed it; GIRLSCOUT cookies. I mean, I don't think I've ever seen more gs cookies in my entire life! For reals? Why are they suddenly popping up everywhere?! I ate a whole box of peanut butter patties. Yes, a whole box. For bfast: 1 lowfat pancake with 2T sugar free syrup.....hahaha! Do they even make lowfat pancakes? I lied. I made these from scratch and - trust me - they were NOT lowfat. And ever since I lived in Colorado with my dear Aunt Noma/Betty Crocker, I have made my own syrup...and I make it with nothing BUT sugar. But I did only have 1 cake and 2T of syrup. :) Lunch was 'the Usual' :) But I only had 5 minutes to eat it, so I HOOVERED my whole plate. Not good. My stomach was SO full! Oh, and SO good.... And I skipped dinner today.... Apparently, making up for it with that box of cookies. Rrrr... Oh yes, I also ate a bag of popcorn. But it was a healthy pop single serving bag, which is only 1 weight watcher point for the whole bag. Yay.

Day 42: CHEATER!!!

Love Ben. Who knows that I love Ben, raise of hands? *sigh...
Ok, so I usually measure myself around 2pm everyday. But today I measured myself at 7am.... I needed a boost of good juju. (Fyi, if you measure yourself in the mornings, you're bound to be just a little lighter than the afternoon, due to a solid 8 hours of no eating, just digesting....which is why you should actually always weigh in in the mornings - after you poop.) So! My confidence is boosted, cause I weighed in 1.3 Ibs lighter than yesterday! Woot! Okay, swimming here I come! Hee hee... but let me tell you about yesterday, day 42.
I started off bad, but not so much. I made pancakes for the girls, and obviously made myself some too. (I heart pancakes.) But I put butter on them that tasted freezer burnt, so I only had a few bites. No, really. Like - 3 bites total. I swam my 30 laps only this time it was easier. It took me about 45 mins this time, so I'm 15 minutes away from my goal. Harder, faster. I can do it. I know I'm getting better, cause I can actually breath the whole time now. It was hard for me to breath correctly when I first started, and I found myself keeping my head out of the water most of the time, but yesterday I did the whole shebang, breathing and all. No problems. :) For lunch I did HORRIBLY cause I usually eat with Matthew, but when I got to work I found he had already eaten, so I was forced to stop by somewhere on our way to the Natural History museum and pick something up - McD's. Oh, my old friend. I will not lie. I had my old favorite: 2 Hot n Spicey McChickens with tomato and a large fry. Okay, that's not all. My cousin, Anya, came with me, and she ordered chicken strips and didn't eat them all. Damn her. I had two of them. The were tasty. I'm SUCH an EATER! Gah! But anyway....Dinner was the only really sensible meal I had: Italian sausage with grilled peppers and onions. Mmmmm. It was delicious. Oh yes, and somewhere in the day I also had one of those 100 calorie packs; chocolate covered pretzels. YUM.

Oh, and this just in: I may have a stalker. His name is Ryan Facebook. Okay, 'Facebook' isn't his real last name, but again: changing names to protect the handsome. I kind of 'hope' he's stalking, anyway. Let's be on the look out, shall we? Mmmm....

Day 41: The truth, the whole truth, nothing but the truth, so help me....HAMBURGER

Okay, soooo.... Day 41 was NOT so good. I diluted myself into thinking I could do a liquid only diet, since I had done so horribly bad over the weekend. Ummm... by 5pm, I was so hungry/munchy, I could have eaten a cow (especially dipped in chocolate... gross). But really, I'd had soy milk with protien in it for bfast, and a pb and banana shake for lunch, and lots of water. By dinner, I wanted FOOD. And not just any food. I knew I had that 'fat-girl-eat-now' look in my eye as I raided the fridge for something that looked tasty and was healthy all at the same time. There was some ground turkey, lettuce and avocado, so you know what I was thinking? HAMBURGER SALAD!!! You remember this, right? From my first week? Absolutely delicious salad with all the fixin's of a hamburger, sans the bun? Well, about half way through cooking the turkey meat, I happened to look at the expiration date of the package, and it said 2-18-10. Bummer. I'd already chopped all the other ingredients, so I ate the salad sans meat as well; it was NOT satisfying. So I ate pizza. Two slices. I should have stopped there, but two hours later, sitting in front of my tv watching my fav show, I was munchy. I wanted that bagel with cream cheese that I never got, but pb sounded better yet again. Bad enough? Not even. Dawn came home with her kids with a sack from Burger King, reaking of the ever-pleasant 'whopper' aroma. I caved. Again. It was a whopper jr, but honestly, what's the point of a whopper jr? All the calories at half the size? Uuuugggghhh!!!! All of this was SUCH a disapointment, ESPECIALLY considering the fact that I swam 30 laps yesterday. 30 LAPS!!! It's a 25 yard pool, so that's 1500 yards, my friends. Yep. I was feeling pretty good with myself until I weighed in 1.5 Ibs heavier than Thursday. So what did I do? I went on to eat like crap. Crap. What a waste. Why am I not sticky?!

Day 40

Here is where I need to keep my mind in the game. You see, for some reason, even when I'm losing weight like crazy, I just don't want to stick to things. Ever. My siblings can attest to this. I'm not very sticky. :/ I wanted a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast, but I had no cream cheese so I settled for a bagel and peanut butter; which, it turns out, is better for me anyway, since I'm trying to swear off dairy. And the bagel was whole wheat. Lunch was a vanilla shake and dinner.... oh, dinner.... I had this enormous craving for huge, soft and still crunchy, restaurant style french fries. And a pineapple burger. From Red Robin. Alas, I gave in. A burger and a basket of fries. You see? Here I am, losing A POUND A DAY and I decide I don't want to anymore. What is WRONG with me?! On the up side, I did bring along my Rick Warren biography to read, and I actually got in to it. I'd never heard of Rick Warren before I picked his bio from a stack of books at the library. Anyway, I went home and ate two huge homemade chocolate chip cookies. AND ON TOP OF EVERYTHING, I DIDN'T EXERCISE. The pool was closed AND it rained all day, so I didn't take Pheobes out or anything. Pah. I guess it was my lazy day. That's what we'll call it. I've decided to do a cleansing day for day 41. It's gonna be nothing but liquids. We'll see how I do.... until then!

Day 39: PIZZA....

It's amazing how much pizza I'll eat when it's available. Honestly. There it was in my fridge: a whole pizza. Perfectly perfect in every way. I ate two slices for lunch and two slices for dinner. (Along with 4 chocolate chip cookies that Dawn made. Brat.) I had Total with soy milk for breakfast, so that wasn't all bad. And a glass of soy milk with lunch and dinner. Pfff. Anyway, I can't feel super bad about it. I just can't! You know why? Because I swam 25 laps on day 39. Yes, you read it right. No mistake. Here, I'll write it again: I swam TWENTY FIVE LAPS. I just couldn't stop myself! I wanted to do extra because of the cookie catastrophe yesterday, so I just kept swimming! 25! I'm amazing, I have to say. It's kind of disgusting just how much I love to swim. Except I'm a little nervous about Sunday. I read somewhere in the Bible that the Devil owns the water. Especially on Sundays. So I think it might be blasphemous to swim on Sundays. Oh! I think the YMCA is closed Sundays. Maybe. Hopefully. Cause then that will make my decision for me. But in any case, I don't work on Sunday, so I'm going to take Pheobes to the park again. But I'll walk the whole time this time. That'll be my exercise. I had a little chit chat with my buddy Ryan last night. (Ryan is this insanely adorable and totally great looking guy I met in Colorado. He's completely in love with me and has therefore sworn off women. Poor guy.) He tells me he used to be a fat kid, but I think he's lying. I mean, where's the proof? Like this girl I work with; she's like, 120Ibs soaking wet, and today she tells me that she's had every surgery there is to look like that. At age 18 she weighed 275 and was wearing a size 24. So she had her stomach stapled....and re-stapled....and tucked....and re-tucked....and so surgical skinniness ensued. It's all true, I've seen her scars. I didn't believe it til I saw them. But Ryan? He's such a cutie. Never had a fat day in his life. For shizzle. :)

Oi vie... I just realized that I've got to do 26 laps tomorrow.... Yeah. Extra laps? NOT my best idea. :(

Day 38: The Ugly Truth...about GS Cookies

AAAAhhhhh!!!! There I was, being soooo gooood! FEELING so good!!! Grrr.... okay, OKAY! Let's just take this one step at a time. So, for breakfast I caved and had two crepes fillied with pb&j and topped with powdered sugar. But it's okay, cause I swam an extra lap (I'm up to 16 now! Woot!). Then I took my dog to the dog park and stopped to get a small frozen yogurt...(pistachio: it kind of tasted like tanning lotion, but in a good way.... weird). Pheobes was sooo good today! She was running and PLAYING with the puppies! It was so cute- she NEVER plays. So I was happy. Lunch was ALMOST as amazing as the hamburger salad, which I haven't had in a while, and I think it's high time I had another. 'Portabello mushroom burger=YUM' Okay, but for reals. I didn't even miss the meat. I sauteed the mushroom in 2T of olive oil and put it on a SaraLee thin bun with lettuce and tomatoe and green godess dressing. It was SO GOOD! I mean, I could have eaten 12 of them. But I didn't. Just one and a nutri-grain bar. Good, right? Well, wait for it. :( So... there I was, minding my own business... I was going to the grocery store to post flyers of my friends lost dog... (it's a good deed! Don't people usually get rewarded for good deeds?!)... when I saw them. Just outside the grocery store... so innocent and tempting ALL AT THE SAME TIME: GIRLSCOUTS. AND THEIR MOTHERS. AND THEIR COOKIES. THOSE DAMN COOKIES!!! In my heart, I prayed the price of GS cookies per box had gone up. That somehow, they would be more than the $10 cash I had in my pocket. You know, charity, for a good cause, extra super expensive cookies or something?! No. $3.50 a box. I bought two boxes. And I ate half a box before I got home. AAAAHAHHHHH!!!!! :( I hate girlscouts. On the bright side, I went on a date last night. This guy, Dave, (names have been changed to protect the gorgeous) admitted to me that he'd eaten a whole box of lemonades today. That made me feel better. He says the cookies are like crack. Whenever he buys a box, he feels like saying, "Hey man, you got my shit? I need that shit!" while he's slipping them the money all sly and on the DL. Bahahaha!!! It's so true! Hee hee hee.... Anyway, we both felt like salad would be a good option, so we went to Rubios, but he ended up with a burrito and I had a 'wrapsalada'. A salad in a tortilla. Cause I needed the calories. Sigh. On a good note, we saw the Crazies. And even tho I've deemed Day 38 a flop, at least I'm not a poisoned water consuming head case bent on driving a pitch fork through people or locking them in a closet in a house that I then set on fire. I mean, all in all? I guess I can't be too put out. :P

PS... I just read all the comments on Day 37! I LOVE you people! Okay, thanks to my skeester for putting the word, 'regular' in a mexican accent in my head. (I can't stop saying it now!) It sounds like this: rrre-goo-lahrrr. Hahaha!!! FUNNY! And Benjamin, I have NO idea what you're talking about, but somehow I can imagine you looking at those lights in a daze and saying how pretty they are. ESPECIALLY in a turtle suit! Think Franklin meets Bill & Ted. Hahaha!!! McKenna Rae, I love you more than LIFE ITSELF!!! And I love that you can hear my voice when I write. I try my best to put myself into my blog, and I'm happy when I know I've pulled it off. :P AND PAM!!! Thanks for the compliment! Who knows? Maybe one day I'll make it BIG and I'll give a huge speech and say things like, 'It's all thanks to my fans on trythediet.blogspot.com!' Sigh... one can only hope! Thanks you guys! Love you all!

Day 37

Why is it that when I am eating right I have no inclination to exercise what so ever (seriously... even the word is painful!) but when I'm exercising I just want to eat healthy? It's like, my body is feeling good from the exercise and my brain is telling me not to ruin it! Meh, it works for me! Yesterday started off easy with a vanilla protein shake before swimming my 13 laps. I'm getting up there! I had a Nutrigrain bar for snack around 1030 and then I was bad and had Arby's for lunch. I endulged in home-style fries and a roasted chicken sandwich. It was on whole grain bread and I only ordered a medium.... AND it came with a diet coke. Diet coke is the only thing that makes me even more excited than avocados....and we all know I'm crazy about avocados! :) And can I just say how AWFUL those girl scout cookies are again? (Tito, you're a fool if you think $40 dollars worth of cookies will really last you that long. A FOOL! :]) Grrr.... I had 4... FOUR!!! Of those delicious peanut butter ones... the ones covered in chocolate? Yeah. I ate 4. Better than 6, tho. Progress! Hahaha... I did some extra Wii exercises to make up for being bad. I think it worked. :/ But dinner was AWESOME!!! Mmmmm... chicken fajitas minus the tortilla. Just chicken, sauteed onions and red bell peppers with sliced avocado. AVOCADO! Why do I feel like yelling 'AVOCADO' in a mexican accent? I topped it off with a strawberry soy shake for dessert. It was delish. I'm feeling good about day 37. Didn't get to weigh myself, but I'm hoping my pattern of 1Ibs a day was sustained. We'll see on day 38! Bah! :)

Day 36

I've started writing my meals down every day, cause I can never remember just what I ate and it's always a PAIN!!! So yesterday was an AWESOME day, except for that I forgot to eat dinner and I had a movie date, so my tummy was growling all night. :( But is was a good movie! Shutter Island, baby. There's an unexpected ending. LOVED it! Leo DiCaprio is one of the awesomest actors, seriously. Okay, so I thought I'd be all cook-y and make myself an omelette. Eggs, onions, peppers and ham. It was good, but I topped it with salsa that I think must have been a little 'off', cause it tasted pretty funny. I ended up scraping it off and then only eating half of it, cause my tast buds couldn't take anymore. :( I didn't have any snacks; I was hungry enough for one, but I didn't have the time. I did my laps in the pool and then got ready and it was time to work! I had a ham and cheese wrap with mixed greens and avocado for lunch (mmm... my old friend, avocado....) and also a strawberry banana shake (I 86ed the protein... just strawbanana, milk and ice. Delish!) But then Katie (my boss) stocked up on girl scout cookies and I couldn't resist! Grrr.... I had 6 of the caramel delights. SIX! That's too many. But they were so super delicious.... I guess I got my comuppance tho, since I skipped dinner. I got home late and I was tired, so I just went to bed without any supper. Like poor kids. Or bad kids. :(

Day 35

Progress yet again! Woot! So, I've been doing the Wii fit for the last couple of days and I think it's a lot of fun and really helpful! It charts my wieght, my BMI and all my activities and weight loss goals. Plus I have my very own personal trainer who always loves me and is free whenever I want her to be. Anyway, everyday I've measured .09 Ibs less than the day before! That's almost a pound a day! Unhealthy, you might ask? Not at all! I'm only doing what my body asks, and in turn, it's doing as I ask! Or something. I don't know, I just sprouted out what my head was thinking to justify a pound a day. I mean, obviously I'm happy and not actually concerned about whether it's healthy or not. I haven't really been paying much attention to WHAT I eat so much as HOW MUCH of it I eat. My 'trainer' told me to be sure and eat slowly so that when my stomach catches up with my head (it takes about 20 minutes), I will know that I'm full and I can stop eating so I don't overdo it. This is something I've always known, but never put into action. :) Also, I've really been drinking a lot of shakes. At least 2 protein shakes a day and then a variety of non-protein shakes when I get the munchies. (ex: 1 banana, 2tbs pb and 1/2 c ice 1/2 c milk=VERY delicous shake.)
So on the food front: I had a bowl of Fiber One flakes with Soy milk. I can't usually tell the difference between reg and soy milk, but I think that's because it's always mixed in the shake. But I could taste it in the cereal! It tasted sweet and vanilla-y. Well, it was vanilla flavored soy milk, but I still wasn't expecting it. :) Meh. I also downed a protein shot before going swimming. 12 laps! YAY! I'm sooo a swimmer. You should have seen me. Goggles and swim cap. I'm so hot. Oh, not to mention I wear a sports bra with my swimsuit. No, really. 'The girls' are just CRAZY without a bra, so I have to! At least they're both black so it doesn't look THAT bad. Tee hee... Okay, so! (I'm supposed to be leaving for a date in like, 5 secs, so I hope you don't mind if I run through this...) For lunch I had a turkey sandwich on my fav saralee 45 calorie bread, an apple and LOTS of water. (this is the secret key to feeling full. Until you have to pee 12 times in 1 hour, then you're hungry again. Go figure.) For dinner I had mashed potatoes and fried chicken. Ok, soooo not good for me, but sooo good for me! :) I suck. But I don't! Cause the Wii told me I was 20 years old. Double woot! Oh, I also ran around the local park for two hours with Matthew chasing a styrofoam airplane and turtles. Ha. Oh, I love my life. Such great weather we're having! I wore a tank top today! Yay! :)

Day 34: I'm a CANCER!

So, I've discovered my excersize secret. I love swimming. Like, not just love it, but LOVE it. And not just playing in water... real life, goggles, laps and all... swimming. I LOVE IT!!! Yesterday was day 34. I walked for 15 mins on the treadmill in the morning...(3 miles an hour. Ryan, you're a complete phsyco. No one 'walks' at 5 miles an hour). Then I swam at the local YMCA. I told myself I would do 5 laps, since I haven't been to swim in a while. When I got to 5 I didn't want to stop. I did 10 laps! And I could have done more! I just didn't have the time. I was so excited because after showering and dressing all I could think about was getting back there and doing it again! I could feel all the muscles in my body working and I was SUPER duper sore right after, but I sat in the hot tub and stretched and I didn't feel sore AT ALL this morning! Yay. When I shared this with my friend, McKenna, she was all, 'well of course. You're a cancer.' The cancers sign is the crab and our element is water. Huh. Maybe that's it. :) Then, at work I played on the Wii fit and it said that I burned a total of 112 calories, so that's good. I was so active today! Yay me! And food wise I did EXCELLENT. Well, except for a box of whoppers late at night. Fff... there HAS to be room for error, okay? Anyway, I had a protein shake for bfast and lunch, but I supplemented it with an apple in the am and half a turkey sandwich with lunch. And by the way, you can really open your eyes to good eating when you look at the nutrition labels of the food your consuming. I had a choice between whole grain bread slices or those new diet buns that are supposed to be so good for you; but when I examined the nutrition labels, I found that good old SaraLee whole grain, low calorie bread has fewer calories, sodium and carbs, with more dietary fiber to boot! Ha. Take that, diet fads. :) Around 3pm I got really munchy so I had some roast beef and brocolli. Dinner was a whole chicken breast with brown rice (only 1/4 a cup. Still trying to keep my carbs low, but I just CAN'T cut them out completely!) and some yummy steamed carrots. :) I topped it all off with a delicous glass of Autumn Leaf Pino Noir and headed to bed feeling MIGHTY proud of myself..... that is, until I couldn't sleep so I watched a movie and ate a box of Whoppers. Jeesh. Whatever.....

HAYLIE!!!!

Haylie is evil. Every time I spoke to her after making our weight loss diet pact, she said things like, "I ate ice cream all weekend". So I had NO idea that she was actually eating weight watcher ice cream AND staying in her points range! Low and behold, I've gained 3 pounds, and she's lost 20! Jerk. Deceitful little.... FINE! She wants to play 'weight loss freak'? I'll show her. I can loose crazy amounts of weight too! I'll do it. This time, I'm for reals. I went to Tooele this weekend and spent some much needed time with some awesome friends. I can do this. I have to do this! I'm NOT going to Alaska all fat and lumpy while Haylz is all skinny and beautiful. Brat. I'm totally doing this. GO MICHELE! I had a nice breakfast of Fiber one cereal with soy milk yesterday morning. Then lunch time was chicken and peas. I didn't eat dinner, since I was driving home from Utah, and that took FOREVER now that I drive the speed limit. Pfff. Oh well. Okay, GO ME!!! Let's DO THIS!!! :)

Broken or whole, a Cookie never rejects you...

Hahahaha... the tag line is just an AWESOME quote I heard from the movie "Lying to be Perfect". It's a lifetime original and you can watch it online at mylifetime.com. Totally worth it, I think. It's true! A cookie never rejects you. :( Or a brownie. I'm really a brownie lover, myself. Anyway, my new attempt at regular excersize is that I've posted an ad on craigslist: Wanted: an equally overweight, twenty-something female walking partner. No responses yet, but I just posted this morning. And while we're on the excersize subject, the reason I said no excersize comments is not because I don't believe it's the answer. Of COURSE it's the answer. I'm not trying to find some magical mystical crazy way to suddenly be thin. I know the way to be thin: make healthy food decisions and EXCERSIZE. Which, I am trying to do. What I meant by the 'no excersize' comment is that I need something to do to distract me. I can eat while I'm working. I can eat at the library. I can eat when I'm walking. I can ALWAYS eat. I can't even think of a scenario where food is not an option. No matter what you are doing, you can always eat or snack. I want an alternative. Does that make sense? Eating is really emotional for me and when something happens to boost my emotions, I eat. I can't go jump on a treadmill in the middle of a work day, but I can grab a bag of chips. I can't do sit-ups on the library floor, but I can eat a cookie while I'm browsing. I know this is SUCH a bogus thing to be blogging about, but I just wanted to clarify what I meant. And I love my followers. I LOVE my followers! I just really wish some of you lived close enough to me to come on a walk with me. :( That's all.

Something really bad happened on Tuesday. I found out about it late that night. Which is why I spent the majority of Wednesday eating crap. I don't think I even had one bit of real food on Wednesday. I ate cake for breakfast, brownies for lunch and a homemade pizza (by homemade, I mean I ate a little bit of crust with my mountain of cheese) for dinner. I polished off the day with two glasses of wine. Yeah. Talk about emotional. And there's something about baking that really makes me feel better, which is where the cake and brownies came from. Okay, I always forget that people really read these, but I want you all to know that after the initial embarrassment that I ALWAYS feel, I am sooo happy for all of your helpful comments, texts and messages. THANK YOU!! I know I'm in a bit of a rut now, but I'll work my way out of it. I always do, but I've never had such an amazing support system. Love you guys!!!!

Day 28

I weighed myself. It's not good. I suck so hard at this. I'm destined to be a fat girl forever. I think the problem is that I don't have a problem with that. SAD! According to Wii fit, I am obese but my wii fit age is 26, (which is exactly how old I am in truth) and that I'm in good shape. How can an obese person be in good shape? Maybe because I'm not so obese? Maybe just comfortably padded in all the right places? (Maybe not all the right places. My butt could use a little more padding. Or a lot.) Anyway, the point is: half a pan of brownies, cookies, chocolate in general and normal things like bread, pasta, pizza, cheese and yogurt are all things that I LOVE. Oooh! And MILK. I am SUCH a dairy queen. Anyway, I'm going to try something new. I don't know what yet, but I am determined to become healthier MY way. I don't want to go without the things I love and I know the rule of moderation but how exactly do you apply it when you are such an emotional eater? I actually know the answer to that: I need to get a hobby or something that I can do when I'm stressed or angry or tired or happy. (Those are the emotions I eat after.....and there are many more, but it just seems so pathetic to list them.) So, any suggestions? Something I can do at any time, in any place, no matter what. And if anyone suggests excersize, I will block them from my blog. I don't know if I can do that, but don't think I won't try! Okay, people, support group is in session! Please! Help!

Day Something or other

I forgot to look at which day this was before I posted, so you get to figure it out! I did sooo good yesterday! I even went to McD's and got a SALAD. No, really! A salad! No burger, fries.... but I did get a diet coke. Still drinking crap, I know. Bad Michele! Anywho, a shake for bfast. Banana Strawberry Vanilla... YUM! For those of you that don't know, when I drink a shake, it's a protein shake. A ginormous bag of protein powder only costs like, $15 at Walmart and the same thing costs $60 elswhere, so I recommend Walmart. :) Anyway, I blend it with 2 scoops powder, 1 cup ice and 1 cup water (or milk substitute) and then any fruit I want. Usually banana. But I added strawberries this morning and THAT was a stroke of genius if I've ever had one. :) I forgot to weigh myself today. Forgot, or woke up feeling '1/2 a pan of brownies' fat, so I didn't want to. Either way, I didn't. So I'll weigh myself tomorrow morning and see if that helps. Oh, yes. Okay, bfast: shake, lunch: McD's Southwest salad (grilled chicken, no dressing. It comes with lime wedges so I squeezed those all over the salad and seriously, you guys. You really don't need dressing.) I wanted a fruit and yogurt parfait, but I resisted (and I'm still regretting it...). I didn't eat dinner til like, 1130 cause I was working. I shouldn't have eaten at all that late, but I was SO HUNGRY. That's what I get for being lazy and skipping my snacks. But I had spaghetti squash...(which, by the way, covered in meatsauce, you can't really even tell the difference). It was good! Totally wanted garlic bread, but again, I resisted and PREVAILED!!! Mostly just cause if I really wanted it, I would have to make it and it was 1130 at night! Who makes garlic bread at 1130 at night?.......... Okay, fat kids do. And I maybe have once or twice, but NOT last night! :) I even took Pheobes on a walk! Okay, it was only 15 minutes... but it was late and I was tired and something is better than nothing! Good day. I feel a great 'weigh day' coming on tomorrow.

Day 26: BROWNIES.

THANKS FOR YOUR COMMENT PAM!!! :)

No, brownies are DEFINATELY not part of my diet. But I ate them. I ate half a pan of them. Gross. I'm gross! But the brownies weren't gross. The brownies were DELICIOUS. I'm starting to think maybe I just can't do this. Not enough will power, you know? I did takes Pheobes out for a run tho. A RUN! For reals. And there probably wasn't anything funnier than my running uphill on pavement and Pheobes trotting beside me. My pants kept falling down so I had to hold them up with one hand!!! Bahahaha!!! Now, that's just funny. Seriously. Heehehehe.. Anyway, bfast started out well: scrambled eggs and bacon. Lunch was half a chicken breast with salad and dinner was my FAVORITE. A huge, bloody steak with half a baked potatoe and brussel sprouts. I don't like brussel sprouts tho. Don't tell Dawn, but I chucked those. Bleh. I did have sour cream on my steak, tho. If you've never tried it, you should. It's better than steak sauce. I prefer horsey sauce on my steak, but if that's not available, sour cream it is! And sour cream it was!!! Which, of course, sour cream isn't part of my diet. AND I had half a pan of brownies. (They were sooo good!) But tomorrow is weigh day, so we'll see what kind of damage I've done then. :( Boo hoo.

Day 25! See? I got there.

Ha! Day 25... I was thinking about starting over and calling it day 1 or maybe day 7; you know, picking up where I left off. But, no. I ultimately decided that to be true to myself and this diet, I've got to be honest with when I started, what I ate, when I screwed up and whatever. So it's Day 25 guys. And before I get started, can I just say: I LOVE YOU, CELESTIAL!!! Yes, that right! My baby sister. She's getting married. The engagement isn't 'official' yet.... whatever that means.... but MY BABY SISTER IS GETTING MARRIED!!! :( and :) I'm so conflicted! Lol! But not really. I LOVE Marty. It just means that I'm the last one left COMPLETELY UNHITCHED! Ba!! And on top of that, I've taken a vow not to kiss ANY boys this summer in Alaska. Why, you ask? Because this summer is about saving money, discovering Alaska and discovering myself. :) It's the Michele club. No boys allowed. He he....
Oh, right. The diet. So, yesterday was awesome. I had a protein shake for bfast: strawberry/chocolate....YUM. No snack, cause I wasn't hungry. Lunch was picnic in the park with Matthew! Such a cutie.... I ate egg salad (literally.... like, boiled eggs over a bed of wild greens, bacon and tomatos). I think I'll have a hamburger salad tomorrow. Because, really? It's only the greatest salad yet. I miss it! :( Snack of green beens...(my new fav veggie)... and 2 oz turkey. Then I had vegetable soup for dinner. HOMEMADE veggie soup. Like, friggin delish. Carrots, celery, corn, potatoes and green beans all boiled in a chicken broth. Okay, I had two bowls. I love soup. I ate another cookie tho. Damn cookies. Obviously my weakness. :(

Hey Guys! Still no 'Day' Day. But I'll figure it out....

OK! Freakin good day yesterday! I wasn't able to take Pheobes on a walk, cause I was working from 630am to 1130pm... (literally... sometimes, having two or five jobs suck....) But! I did really well eating wise! I had a pb & j for lunch, but that's it for the cheat scale! A vanilla strawberry protein shake in the morning, 2 oz of chicken for snack and the cheat for lunch. You will NEVER guess what I had for dinner! Hahaha!!! Okay, I'll tell you. Asparagus. Like, JUST asparagus. Kind of a really unexplainable amount. :( !!! I guess that's not really bad, since asparagus IS a green veggie, and that's what this diet is all about, but GEESH! I don't know what came over me. It was kind of funny cause there were about 25 spears in the fridge from a previous dinner, so I loaded about 10 onto a plate and warmed them up while I was looking for some protein. But once I started munching on the asparagus spears, I just couldn't stop!!! :/ I put the rest of them on the plate and warmed those up too! Finished off the meal with a tall glass of water and that was that! Lol... I really like asparagus. Gross, right? Meh....

NEW POST!!!

Okay, I think I should start over, cause I really don't know which day this is. Sigh... I've been so bad! I thought it would be fun to blog, and I knew I wouldn't be able to keep dieting without the motivation from my friends and family, so I started this blog! As it turns out, I'm not entirely sure I really like blogging! But, as my oh-so-kind cousin Teresa let me know, I am totally rude! I did beg for everyone to follow, and since I am seriously whitty and adorably funny in my blogs, I got you all hooked.... AND THEN LEFT YOU HANGING!!! I'm such a jerk. Well, here is what has been going on....

I got sick for a few days, and so I stopped dieting, and so I stopped blogging! Then, I got back on the diet for a couple days and then started my period. (I don't care who knows. I'm a 26 year old woman. I get periods.) And THAT was NOT fun. So I stopped dieting again, because all I wanted was Diet Coke, Ibuprofen and fudge. For three days. YIKES. Anyway, I got back on the horse last week, and dieting has been good! I can really feel the energy that I have spike when I'm doing well. Also, I've been taking Pheobe (aka: pheoburrito) to the dog park twice a week, and walking her EVERY night. YES! Every night! She loves it! And she's such a good walk-dog! She doesn't pull or anything, and she stays right by me! I love her. So, I've lost an additional 7 pounds. I lost a total of 9 the first week, but I put 6 back on with my fudge eater craze. (I pack on weight quick... it's sick....) Anyway, total I've lost about 12 pounds, give or take. I'm going to start blogging again, I promise! And I won't let you down again! Grrr... I'm such a jerk! :) OH! And from today, my friend Haylie and I are having a contest. We're going to Alaska in May, so we've decided to lose 20 Ibs before we go. The first 12 don't count, cause we just made this promis today. So I've got 20 Ibs and about 10 weeks! 2 Ibs a week is really do-able. Tally Ho!

Day 6: Oatmeal Cookies!!!

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OMG! Sooo.... Dawn was totally holding out on me. She suprised me today with oatmeal cookies that I'm actually allowed to eat! (only 1, but hey! it's a cookie!) And their soooo good! I will post the recipe as soon as she gives it to me. You'll love them! They're so good! I ate mine after lunch....
Breakfast was a little off the usual menu, but still legally on the diet, so I'm happy about that. I had my 2 poached egg whites, and 1/2 c of oatmeal with cinnamon and 1/2 of an apple, sliced and cooked tender in the oatmeal. It was so warm and filling and yummy! I skipped my snacks again today which I really need to stop doing cause I do get pretty hungry.... especially between lunch and dinner. Lunch was awesome! I had a buffalo chicken salad. Just mixed greens beneath a whole chicken breast marinated in hot sauce and sliced up. It was so friggin delicious. But I really wanted a cup of milk. :) But I didn't! I had water. Water is my best friend lately. I've never really been great at drinking lots of water and as a result I have really dry skin. But yesterday morning I woke up and my eyes were dry and scatchy and my mouth was clammy and gross.... I had to drink an entire bottle of water just to get back to semi-normal! Dawn said something about me eating good food now and my body needs it more than ever... I think it's because now my body isn't filled with fatty McDonald oil all the time. :) So anyway, I've been drinking LOADS of water each day and it's helped me with the hunger and the dry eyes. I hope my skin gets clearer too.... So anyway, then I got called in to work, so I didn't eat my evening snack either [:(] But when I got home I had a delicious baked potato, steamed asparagus and mushrooms and a big fat sirloin steak! YUM! Seriously, I am NOT suffering on this diet. Okay, maybe sometimes I am. But not tonight! Friggin delicious. Now if I could only top it off with another oatmeal cookie.... :) Cheers!

Day 5

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Ahahahaha! I am so going to be super skinny super fast. Today was actually kind of hard, being that it was my day off, so I didn't prepackage any of my meals. It's a lot harder when you make it up as you go! Anyway, I had an awesome breakfast: a simple tomato and egg white omelet. And then I skipped my snack, cause I was super busy AND just didn't need it. It's amazing how long you can go between meals when you eat something that's good for you. Anyway, around noon I had an amazing lunch: 1 whole chicken breast, 1/2 cup edamame and 1/2 cucumber drizzled with 1T rice vinager. I've never had edamame before! I don't even think I'm spelling it right! But ooooh.... it was sooo good! I think most people put lots of salt on it, but I can't think why. I had just steamed them slightly in water and then popped them open and ate them. Friggin GOOOOOD! And they were so naturally salty that I don't think I would have liked them with more salt. The cucumber was interesting with the vinager. I could really taste it and I liked it and the chicken pulled the rest of it together. I didn't eat my evening snack either, but mostly because I was busy running errands all evening again too. I should have eaten it, because I did start to get hungry around 5pm, but we were shopping! (I love shopping....) Anyway, Dinner was buffalo wings, salad and celery. The buffalo wings are a bit of a stretch, but it's Friday! :) All in all it was a great day, and I even got some excersize it! (walking around the Centennial Hills outdoor mall and trying on clothes for an hour is DEFINATELY excersize.) :] Just another day in paradise! The end.

Day 4: Blaaaaaah!

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First of all, I want to start out by saying a huge THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! to my followers and their comments! Ben, Erin and my sister CC. You guys seriously make me smile and I really love and appreciate your comments. BENJAMIN: I promise not to use the term 'fat girl' anymore, except for today, since I've actually already written the blog below and I'm only now editing it. :) Love you tho. You're amazing. ERIN: I totally agree about excersizing, and I'm definately starting a regimine. I took my dog for a walk yesterday, and getting ready to do the same today. Hopefully we'll go to the dog park and she'll learn to fetch....(she hates to fetch...) :] CELESTIAL: You're my favorite favorite. I love you. You were my FIRST comment and no one can take that away from you! YAY! And now.... on to the bad news.....

What. The. H. Pffff.... I'm so sad! So, I discovered that breakfast is the most important meal of the day. I screwed up again. Big time this time. MAN! You'd think I could do ANYTHING for just 7 freakin days at least, right? Ugh... Well, for those of you that don't know, one of my jobs is making breakfast for and driving two 12 yr old girls to school every morning. Usually, I'm smart and I eat my bfast before making them their pancakes/waffles/cinnamon rolls or the like. Well.... this morning, they wanted crepes. I found a very simple crepe recipe a few weeks ago and made them stuffed with peaches, pears, strawberries or whatever. The girls LOVED them. So here I was on a TOTAL high, cause I weighed myself and found out that I had lost 8 POUNDS in 3 days. EIGHT POUNDS. This is not a joke. But instead of motivating me, all that did was make me go, "I've already lost 8 Ibs! I'm doing great! I can totally have a crepe and it won't even matter!". Rrr.... well, I ate the crepe. With strawberries and whipped cream. Which, honestly, wasn't too bad, cause I'm allowed the strawberries and whipped cream. But then... I ate another one. With peanut butter. PEANUT BUTTER CREPES ARE DELICOUS. But soooo not part of the diet. For reals.... there is like, WAY too much sodium in peanut butter. Hmph. Well, I certainly learned my lesson. I was hungry for the rest of the day. It didn't matter what I ate or how much.... I was so hungry! It's all because of those damn crepes. When I spoke to Dawn (my diet mentor) about it later, she said exactly what I thought she'd say. You see, if you're gonna cheat, do it at the end of the day. Breakfast is really important because if you eat the right foods, they will tide you over until the next meal. The wrong foods will fill you up, but you'll be craving food again sooner than you think. Boy was she right! Before 2pm, I had eaten both my snacks AND my lunch. It was AWFUL! Morning snack was yummy...2 oz pork and 1/2 cucumber, sliced. Lunch was yuck. Spinach, sweet potatoe and raisin salad with 4 jumbo shrimp on the side. It was all even yuckier than it sounds... bleh. But I choked it down cause it's good for me and I was HUNGRY! Then, about 20 mins after I ate my lunch, I just was NOT satisfied, so instead of going for something bad, I ate my second snack. Which was 2 oz roast chicken and 2 celery stalks.... but I put pb on the celery again (yikes!) and I put the chicken in a salad with mixed greans, ceasar dressing and......drumroll.....avocado! Geesh... when I screw up I really screw up. And I haven't even told you the worst part! Around 5pm my sweet tooth was just too overbearing so I ate a fun size snickers bar. Okay, I actually ate two. And that's still not the worst part. On my way home, there is a donut shop. I have no idea why I could not pass it by, but I just couldn't. :( I got 6 donuts and because it was the end of the day, she gave me two for free. I shoved two of them in my mouth immediately, and then another a few hours later. Ugh. I am such a fat girl. Do you know what I was thinking as I ate all of that? I was thinking, "I'm going to have to admit to all of this in my blog tomorrow." Grmph. Anyway, when I got home after the donut binge, I ate a very sensible dinner of 4 oz turkey cutlets and steamed green beans and brocolli. Okay, I always knew I like brocolli, but the only green beans I've ever really had were the canned ones. And they were okay if you smothered them butter and salt. Well, I had FRESH green beans, steamed VERY lightly...(if you steam or cook veggies too much, they loose a lot of the good stuff in them. Cook or steam your veggies just until they are glossy and bright. If they start to loose their color, you know they start to loose their nutients!) So my beans and brocolli were bright green and delicious! Very satisfying. But I still ate that 3rd donut later. Hmmm. So sorry that this day was a wreck, but I learned a valuable lesson: Breakfast Counts! Lol... Tomorrow is another day and I'm excited to climb back on my diet wagon. Oh! And as an aside, I did go for a 15 minute walk this morning! It was FREEZING! But I did it! :)

Day 3: Hazzah!

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I did it! NO mistakes! Ok, I did NOT take the dog on a walk, or do any other form of excersize... BUT! I did not screw up! Yay! I'm sooo impressed with myself. You do not even KNOW the will power I had to summon, not to go straight to McD's after work today for a chicken sandwich and a coke. SERIOUSLY!! I was actually saying these words out loud in my car: "I'm going straight home. No stopping. Just turn right, not left, RIGHT. Go home. I'm going straight home." Hee.. hee. I'm SUCH a fat kid at heart. Seriously. :( Okay, so I started the day early today. (I have to work at 630 am every Wednesday.) So, instead of eggs, I made a banana protein shake. 1 (slightly brown) banana, 2 scoops protein powder, 1c ice and 1c water. I usually make this shake w milk, but since I have a NO DAIRY rule, I had to make due. It was still pretty good. Not as heavy and creamy, but eh! It was better than egg whites AGAIN! However, since I ate it so early, I was ready for my snack at 9am. 2 oz pork and 2 stalks celery. And then I remembered lunch. Ooooh... it was a hamburger salad today. Everything on a burger, but no bun and extra lettuce. Actually, it was mixed greens. So I started thinking about my 'lunch' right after my snack, and I was IMMEDIATELY hungry again. :( I waited as long as I could, but at 1115am, I could wait no longer. 1c mixed greens, 2oz turkey burger, cooked and chopped into bits, 2 slices tomato, chopped, 6 pickles, 1t mustard, mayo and ketchup. I really wanted another avocado, but me and avocados are through for a little while. ;) OH MY GOSH!! I'm telling you... eat this salad whenever you feel like a really yummy burger. I didn't even MISS the bun! I really truly felt like I had just eaten a huge burger! It was so yummy... Hmmmmmm.... I'm thinking about it right now.... :) I also had my 1/2 a sweet potatoe and that did wonders for my sweet cravings. Anyway, I went back to work on a full tummy and I really wasn't hungry until around 3pm. I found myself really really really wanting a fruit snack. In fact, I actually pulled one out the cupboard, intending on eating it and excusing it away because it was almost nothing.... until I read the nutrition facts. Who knew a tiny bag of fruit snacks had so much sugar and carbs in it? Eh... it was enough to make me put it back. I still wanted it, but I put it back. (Hazzah!) Then, I took out my 'allowed' snack of 2 oz turkey and 1/2c peapods. I'm starting to NOT like turkey, pork, celery and peapods. They are alright in moderation, but SERIOUSLY. I've had them for 3 days now, and I NEED A BREAK! Sigh... but a break I will not get. :( Anyway, when I got home (after NOT going to McD's... yay!) I was really hungry and in need of something sweet, NOW! So I ate my dessert first. Again. And I had to jet off to my second job at 5, so I ate dinner early. I had a chicken ceasar salad.... um... YUM. 1 whole chicken breast, cooked and cut into pieces, 1c mixed greens, 1/2c fresh spinach, 1 small tomato, chopped and 1T ceasar dressing. I'm sure ceasar dressing has some kind of dairy in it, but this tiny amount atop my delicious salad was NOT a cheat. NOT. :) It was almost as good as the burger salad... almost. Oh yes! Dessert first.... while the chicken was cooking, I chopped 4 strawberries, 1 little cup of jello (pre-packaged, sugar free strawberry jello), and about 1/4 c sugar free whipped cream. All piled into a tiny bowl, and slurped up VERY HAPPILY!!! Mmmm... whipped cream does wonders to things. SO good. :) Anyway, I didn't get off until 11pm, and I was REALLY craving a diet coke. (Actually, I wanted a beer and a cigarette, but I don't smoke or drink beer, so... diet coke!) Diet coke isn't so much 'against the rules' as it it 'discouraged'. So, since I hadn't had one all week, (and I usually have like, 12 a day), I was going to reward myself for good behavior. BUT! Before I could, a good friend of mine called from Colorado, and we chatted all the way home. I forgot about the Diet Coke! I guess I'm actually kind of happy about it, cause now I can call it a perfect day. Thanks Ryan! :)

Day 2: I suck again!

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You know, I'm starting to think all the times I've dieted before, maybe I cheated here and there until I ruined the whole diet, and that's why they've never worked. Huh. No matter. I'm going to do absolutely excellent today. No cheating whatsoever. As for yesterday, well, that's already done. The term 'salad' is becoming very broad in my head. Anything you eat can be chopped up into little bits and be called a salad. For breakfast, (8am) I had a spinich, tomato and egg salad. You would think this would otherwise be called an omelet, unless you saw it. 1/2 of a medium tomato and 1/2 c fresh spinach, along with 2 scrambled egg whites; all tossed into a salad. Then, around 11am I had my snack. Pork and celery salad. 2 oz of pork and 2 celery stalks all chopped up into little bits to create a 'salad'. It was suprisingly tasty....of course, this was one of my mess ups. I say one, because there were three. (Argg....) Around 1045, I was playing my guitar, in dreamland, and decided I was a little munchy. Not hungry, but munchy. You know, when your stomach could care less about food, but your mouth wants something, anything to chew? I turn around and BAM! There was a box of chocolates on the counter. Only the teenie tiniest of voices in my head told me maybe I shouldn't eat any, but I couldn't remember why! I opened the box and selected a dark chocolate square. It was only when the chocolate was half way to my mouth when I remembered my diet. Sigh. I took a bite anyway. For a brief second, I considered maybe just stopping at half the chocolate, but as I was on the way to the fridge for my proper snack of pork and celery, I popped the other half in my mouth. It was wonderfully sinful. :) For lunch, around 2pm, I was really craving something sweet again! Thank goodness, I had packed myself half of a sweet potatoe. I love sweet potatos. Usually, I love them smothered in butter and brown sugar with golden marshmallows ontop... but that's not exactly part of the diet. Nope, just half of a baked sweet potatoe with 1 c of fresh spinach, 3 jumbo shrimp and 1/2 an avocado. The avocado wasn't exactly part of the diet, but it looked so lonely in my fridge. It had also started to brown, since I'd cut the other half the day before, and no one likes a brown avocado. Anyway, I chopped the lot and it all went into the salad. It wasn't bad, but I think next time I'll eat the shrimp seperately and let the avocado brown. But the moist sweet potatoe really would have been enough with the fresh spinach. It got rid of my sweet craving and I was sooo full! Then around 5pm, I was getting munchy again... (I don't think I've been truly 'hungry' since my McD's binge... :[) and I spotted a fresh pear on the counter. Ah! Pears are NOT part of the diet. The only fruit I'm allowed to have is berries, and very little. I ate the pear. I'm so weak. Then I was still munchy, so I had my snack of 1/2 c pea pods and 2 oz turkey. I really don't like turkey on it's own, I've decided. It's just too dry. I had to choke it down with a glass of water. The pea pods were nice, tho. I think I really like them. Okay, so my last screw up diet-wise.... some of you know that I am a nanny for a living. Well, Matthew (the little boy I nanny) was eating pizza for dinner. I always cut the slices in half, since they are too big for his 3 year old mouth.... and he didn't want his second half. There it was, all gooey and cheesy and warm goodness, just sitting on the counter. After the first two bites I felt so guilty I almost threw the whole thing away. Almost. But in the end, I'm a fat kid, and I ate it. Hmph. At least it wasn't a whole peice. Needless to say, when dinner came around, (730ish) I found I wasn't in the least bit hungry or munchy. So I skipped it. Not good, but not bad either, considering how much I'd eaten before. I thought VERY hard about getting on the treadmill for at least 10 mins. But, as I had to work at 6am this morning, I wasn't very motivated. :( Okay, I'm going to do awesome today, just you wait! Excersize, great food, NO CHEATING. I swear it. :)

Day 1

First timers to my blog: Please read the 'Try the Diet Intro: Baring it All'. The link is located to the left of this display, or you can just scroll to the bottom of this page. :) Thanks!

Day one was yesterday, Monday, January 25th, 2009. For breakfast (8am) I had three egg whites and half of an enormous tomato, sliced. NO SALT or condiments of any kind. For snack (11am) I had 2 oz of turkey and 2 stalks of celery. Okay, this was not the easiest to eat. I really wanted some ranch dressing to dip everything in. Eating turkey plain just seems wrong. Anyway, I choked it down dry, along with the celery which really wasn't that bad. I enjoy celery cause of the crunch, I think. It did the trick; the trick being that I wasnt hungry. Hmmm.... For lunch (1:30 pm), I had an EXQUISITE salad. No joke... it was sooo yummy! All it was, was about a cup and a half of mixed greens, 2 oz of pork, 1/2 an avocado, and 1/2 of a regular potatoe; everything was chopped into bite size pieces and thrown together. No dressing needed! It was delicious! I think it was the avocado that really made it work without dressing. It gave it just enough moisture so I didn't even miss the dressing. Around 5pm I had my snack: 2 oz turkey and about 1/2 c peapods. I've never had pea pods before. Very interesting.... I put them in the fridge prior to eating them, so they were very cold and crisp. I think I like them. I loved the crunch every time I bit into one, and the taste was pretty good. It honestly did not feel natural, and I really wanted a slice of pizza, but again, I choked it down with a glass of water and when I was finished, I was truly, honest to God, not hungry anymore and able to resist the pizza. :) I sort of screwed up dinner, I think. (7:30 pm) 1 large chicken breast and 1/2 c of cooked Kale. I don't know if I spelled Kale right, but it's leafy green stuff and it reminded me of a cross between lettuce and spinach. Anyhow, it was alright and the chicken was marvelous. For desert, I had a fabulous fruit cup which consisted of: 3 chopped stawberries, 1/4 c blueberries, and 1/2 c whipped topping. The reason I say I may have screwed it up: I ate the dessert first. It was just too wonderful looking! And then, of course, when I had finished dinner, I craved something sweet and I just could not resist a chocolate chip cookie. Damn. An almost perfect day.... but not quite. :( Let's try again today, shall we?

Ps... I didn't do any excersizing yesterday. I need to start doing some dog walking for sure.

Try the Diet Intro: Baring it All

Hello! Confession: I'm a fat girl. No, seriously. And it isn't due to any crazy hormone or thyroid or anything like that. I'm a fairly healthy person in every way.... other than the fact that not only do I eat too much, I eat all the wrong things! My favorite treats are anything sugary, cakey, peanut-butter-chocolatey, caramely and I recently discovered the California Brittle from Sees. No joke: I bought 1 Ibs of the brittle to share with my friends (about 10 pieces) and I ate it all before the end of the day. I LOVE tootsie rolls, and have been known to eat not one, but TWO whole big bags of them in one sitting. About 3 days ago, I ordered a usual meal from McDonalds: 2 hot and spicey McChickens with tomato, 1 small fry and 1 fruit and yogurt parait. When I recieved my order, I noticed they had given me an extra sandwich. What did I do? I ate it. Everything. I ate it all. Then, on my way home I passed a cold stone and remembered a coupon I had for and ice cream. I couldn't resist. I mean, this was MINUTES after I had finished my McDonald binge, but the prospect of chewy, chocolatey, brownie fudge ice cream was just too good to resist. To be honest, it wasn't until about an hour later that I really felt anything. Of course, once I did finally feel like my stomach was touching my toes, I had an almost irrisistable urge to run to the bathroom and puke it all up. In fact, I probably should have. I gained 5 Ibs that day. No, really. I got on the scale just to make sure. 5 Ibs is a disgusting amount in a 24 hour period. Anyway, now that I've confessed my inner most sin, I have something to say. You know that inner person everyone says fat people have inside them? Their 'skinny person' who is just waiting to get out? I'm pretty sure I have an inner person, but she's probably just as fat as I am. :/ I mean, after all.... it's that tiny inner voice that's always convincing me that the 1 pound bag of Reece's Peices is really only a one time thing, so I can eat it all in an hour and it's not going to make a difference. Ugh. Okay, well I've tried dieting in the past, but I've never blogged about it. I don't know if this will make a difference, but I'm really hoping to gain some followers who will comment and keep me entertained and support me in my venture. I heard of this diet from my good friend, Dawn Starrett. I don't know if there are specific rules or anything, but I think it's similair to the South Beach Diet. Basically, from what I can take of it, I will be eating loads of leafy green veggies and protien. Nothing but water and tea to drink. A little bit of fruit, and minimal breads. Absolutely NO milk, yogurt, cheese or other dairy; at least for the first two weeks. Supposedly, if I follow this diet, I am garaunteed to drop 20 Ibs in the first 2 weeks. It sounds unhealthy to loose so much so fast, but I'm willing to try it. Please feel free to comment, question, or answer my blog.... I'm looking forward to it!

Thanks,
Michele