Day 47

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Weigh day today! WOOT!!! I'll post my 'success' (premature thinking is ALWAYS a good idea...) tomorrow. I did awesome yesterday. Started with a banana and water for breakfast. NOT ideal, but better than nothing, and I was running out the door... why, you ask? I'll tell you why! I went to church! GO ME! Hahaha... for the first time in almost a year, I went to CHURCH! It was actually awesome. The sermon was all about abortion and politics. A new church, with a pastor named Odor. Pastor Odor. Baha! But he didn't stink! He was great! I went to IHOP for lunch after, and I was SUCH a good girl this time, ordering a mushroom and spinach omelet (I didn't even eat the whole thing... it was HUGE) and a side plate of fruit. Half way through my fruit, my 3 yr old date started helping himself, so we shared it. Hahah!! It was cute tho, cause he kept saying, "Hey look! Another gwape!" And ate all my 'gwapes'. Then I teased him that he must not like watermelon, and of course, he then tackled all of those too. Hee hee....kids. I didn't eat dinner until like, 10 o'clock at night...(bad me...) but it was SOOOO good when I did! 2 oz of roasted pork tenderloin with roasted small potatoes and steamed broccoli. You know me... meat and potatoes are ALWAYS a treat! I didn't swim, cause the pool is closed Sundays and no park either...I'm a bad dog mommy. :( We're going on Wednesday no matter WHAT the weather is. I feel so bad!

Day 46

Eeeeghads! I had SUCH a good day today! For starters, TITO: I swam an extra FIVE laps. :) 35 laps in the pool today! WOOT! But I may have been a little lax on some of those laps, since it took me 50 minutes to do all 35. :( BAD, cause the pool is closed tomorrow. I should have swam 70 laps. Or 100! I got this new Bear Naked cereal/granola stuff with dried banana slices...SO GOOD! I had 2 bowls with soy milk, which only added to about 400 calories; and today I took a little trip to the local grocery store to get some magazines...(I've been doing some artwork lately...mainly collages for McKenna in the form of enormous envelopes)...and I happened upon the diet book section. There was a book swearing up and down that you can eat whatever you want (donuts, ice cream, pancakes, steak, BREAD), WHATEVER! As long as you eat it before 9am. It's called the 'BIG BREAKFAST DIET'. I'm all about eating tons of food, so I thought that might be the diet for me. But then I saw this book called 'Eat This, Not That: the Restaurant Guide' and it showed a really yummy looking burger that was 1100 calories, and then Red Robins Guacamole burger for only 600 cals! And it said to eat it! So? I was all.... 'Okay, sure!' :) But I didn't. I resisted...for then. I had it for dinner instead. Baha! But wait, I'm getting ahead of myself. I ended up going home and having 'the usual', but this time I had it on a whole wheat tortilla; OM-FREAKIN-G. For reals, It was sooooo good, guys. I almost cried. I LOVE sandwiches! Does anyone NOT love sandwiches?! So... I went on a date. This guy took me to dinner tonight, and I said, 'why not go to Red Robin?' ....I'm so bad. So we go to Red Robin. And I looked phenomenal!!! :) So Louis (our waiter) comes to take our order and I look over at my date, (remember: this is a FIRST date), and I say, 'I'm totally getting a burger. Is that breaking rules? The girls supposed to get a salad on the first date, right?' He started laughing and said, 'No, I think that's HOT!' Hahahaha!!! Thank God, cause I REALLY wanted that guacamole burger! Hee hee hee....

Day 45

I broke the chain!!!! I didn't go swimming yesterday. :( My cousin called me while I was on my way and she was all, 'we never hang out anymore!!!' and I was all, 'you're right' and she was all, 'come over! let's do stuff!' and I did. Spent the day with my cousin. It was really fun tho. But I started the day so well with a vanilla protein shake and all. Then we went to Sonic for lunch and I just LOVE the chicken toaster sandwich. And I got it. :( Okay FINE I also got an ice cream. But I skipped dinner. Somehow I wasn't hungry at the end of the day. :( Can you believe how short this blog is? It's like I'm jipping you.

COMBO!!! Days 43 & 44

Okay, so I usually post the day after, but since it's 11:10 at night, I haven't posted for yesterday yet and I'm not eating anything else, you get both days rolled into one. :) So.... I finally got my bagel with cream cheese. It's true. I've been eating WAY too many bagels lately, but who can help it? I mean, really? They're delish! I also had two strips of bacon. THEN... I swam 30 laps. In 40 minutes. PROGRESS!!! That's 10 minutes away from my goal! I'm such a rockstar. Totally gonna be skinny like, TOMORROW. Lunch was possibly the awesomest I've had in forever, but I bought enough ingredients so that I'm going to be eating it for about the next week, so when I say 'I had the usual for lunch today', you'll know it was this: a sandwich. But the greatest sandwich on Gods green earth. Okay: 2 slices 45 calorie SaraLee whole wheat bread, 2T mayo, 1T mustard, 1 vine ripe tomato, 1/2 avocado (ABOCATHO!), 1 slice colby jack cheese, 2 oz lean turkey breast and kale. I steam the kale VERY slightly...just until it's that beautiful bright green color....(YUM).... I'm telling you people, Subway ain't got shit on me. THIS is a sandwich. Steamed asparagus and a glass of soy or almond milk and this is one very ROUND meal. And by round, I mean my tummy hurts when I'm done packing it all in, but I'm okay with that. :) Seriously tho. I usually spell 'EAT ME' with the mustard. Just a little joke....
So dinner was....what was dinner? Oh yeah. It was pizza. 3 pieces. How could I forget?! I was so mad at myself! AND 2 cookies! Crapola. Whatever. I did extra Wii.
Okay, but TODAY was... better? Yes, better. Because I did the Wii in the morning (again) and guess what?! I've lost another 1Ibs! This means the swimming really is paying off! Imagine what would happen if I actually ate right..... scary. Anyway! It still says I'm 'obese', so screw the Wii. I had to be to work earlier today AND the girls took FOREVER this morning and were late for school which left me with only 30 mins to swim. I tried my best, but only did 20 laps. Bummer. I'll have to make up the other 10 tomorrow. No biggie. I'm so excited tho, cause I did freestyle the whole time with absolutely no breaks. NONE. Not a one. Just a straight 20 laps right in a row. I mean, can YOU do that?! Seriously, I want someone to come swimming with me so I can show you how much better I am at it. Come on, I'm a fat girl. I need this. Volunteers? I always think of funny things to put in my blog while I'm in the water, and I never remember them when I'm at my computer. Lame.
Food wise, I did REALLY well... until Dawn brought me cookies. You guessed it; GIRLSCOUT cookies. I mean, I don't think I've ever seen more gs cookies in my entire life! For reals? Why are they suddenly popping up everywhere?! I ate a whole box of peanut butter patties. Yes, a whole box. For bfast: 1 lowfat pancake with 2T sugar free syrup.....hahaha! Do they even make lowfat pancakes? I lied. I made these from scratch and - trust me - they were NOT lowfat. And ever since I lived in Colorado with my dear Aunt Noma/Betty Crocker, I have made my own syrup...and I make it with nothing BUT sugar. But I did only have 1 cake and 2T of syrup. :) Lunch was 'the Usual' :) But I only had 5 minutes to eat it, so I HOOVERED my whole plate. Not good. My stomach was SO full! Oh, and SO good.... And I skipped dinner today.... Apparently, making up for it with that box of cookies. Rrrr... Oh yes, I also ate a bag of popcorn. But it was a healthy pop single serving bag, which is only 1 weight watcher point for the whole bag. Yay.

Day 42: CHEATER!!!

Love Ben. Who knows that I love Ben, raise of hands? *sigh...
Ok, so I usually measure myself around 2pm everyday. But today I measured myself at 7am.... I needed a boost of good juju. (Fyi, if you measure yourself in the mornings, you're bound to be just a little lighter than the afternoon, due to a solid 8 hours of no eating, just digesting....which is why you should actually always weigh in in the mornings - after you poop.) So! My confidence is boosted, cause I weighed in 1.3 Ibs lighter than yesterday! Woot! Okay, swimming here I come! Hee hee... but let me tell you about yesterday, day 42.
I started off bad, but not so much. I made pancakes for the girls, and obviously made myself some too. (I heart pancakes.) But I put butter on them that tasted freezer burnt, so I only had a few bites. No, really. Like - 3 bites total. I swam my 30 laps only this time it was easier. It took me about 45 mins this time, so I'm 15 minutes away from my goal. Harder, faster. I can do it. I know I'm getting better, cause I can actually breath the whole time now. It was hard for me to breath correctly when I first started, and I found myself keeping my head out of the water most of the time, but yesterday I did the whole shebang, breathing and all. No problems. :) For lunch I did HORRIBLY cause I usually eat with Matthew, but when I got to work I found he had already eaten, so I was forced to stop by somewhere on our way to the Natural History museum and pick something up - McD's. Oh, my old friend. I will not lie. I had my old favorite: 2 Hot n Spicey McChickens with tomato and a large fry. Okay, that's not all. My cousin, Anya, came with me, and she ordered chicken strips and didn't eat them all. Damn her. I had two of them. The were tasty. I'm SUCH an EATER! Gah! But anyway....Dinner was the only really sensible meal I had: Italian sausage with grilled peppers and onions. Mmmmm. It was delicious. Oh yes, and somewhere in the day I also had one of those 100 calorie packs; chocolate covered pretzels. YUM.

Oh, and this just in: I may have a stalker. His name is Ryan Facebook. Okay, 'Facebook' isn't his real last name, but again: changing names to protect the handsome. I kind of 'hope' he's stalking, anyway. Let's be on the look out, shall we? Mmmm....

Day 41: The truth, the whole truth, nothing but the truth, so help me....HAMBURGER

Okay, soooo.... Day 41 was NOT so good. I diluted myself into thinking I could do a liquid only diet, since I had done so horribly bad over the weekend. Ummm... by 5pm, I was so hungry/munchy, I could have eaten a cow (especially dipped in chocolate... gross). But really, I'd had soy milk with protien in it for bfast, and a pb and banana shake for lunch, and lots of water. By dinner, I wanted FOOD. And not just any food. I knew I had that 'fat-girl-eat-now' look in my eye as I raided the fridge for something that looked tasty and was healthy all at the same time. There was some ground turkey, lettuce and avocado, so you know what I was thinking? HAMBURGER SALAD!!! You remember this, right? From my first week? Absolutely delicious salad with all the fixin's of a hamburger, sans the bun? Well, about half way through cooking the turkey meat, I happened to look at the expiration date of the package, and it said 2-18-10. Bummer. I'd already chopped all the other ingredients, so I ate the salad sans meat as well; it was NOT satisfying. So I ate pizza. Two slices. I should have stopped there, but two hours later, sitting in front of my tv watching my fav show, I was munchy. I wanted that bagel with cream cheese that I never got, but pb sounded better yet again. Bad enough? Not even. Dawn came home with her kids with a sack from Burger King, reaking of the ever-pleasant 'whopper' aroma. I caved. Again. It was a whopper jr, but honestly, what's the point of a whopper jr? All the calories at half the size? Uuuugggghhh!!!! All of this was SUCH a disapointment, ESPECIALLY considering the fact that I swam 30 laps yesterday. 30 LAPS!!! It's a 25 yard pool, so that's 1500 yards, my friends. Yep. I was feeling pretty good with myself until I weighed in 1.5 Ibs heavier than Thursday. So what did I do? I went on to eat like crap. Crap. What a waste. Why am I not sticky?!

Day 40

Here is where I need to keep my mind in the game. You see, for some reason, even when I'm losing weight like crazy, I just don't want to stick to things. Ever. My siblings can attest to this. I'm not very sticky. :/ I wanted a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast, but I had no cream cheese so I settled for a bagel and peanut butter; which, it turns out, is better for me anyway, since I'm trying to swear off dairy. And the bagel was whole wheat. Lunch was a vanilla shake and dinner.... oh, dinner.... I had this enormous craving for huge, soft and still crunchy, restaurant style french fries. And a pineapple burger. From Red Robin. Alas, I gave in. A burger and a basket of fries. You see? Here I am, losing A POUND A DAY and I decide I don't want to anymore. What is WRONG with me?! On the up side, I did bring along my Rick Warren biography to read, and I actually got in to it. I'd never heard of Rick Warren before I picked his bio from a stack of books at the library. Anyway, I went home and ate two huge homemade chocolate chip cookies. AND ON TOP OF EVERYTHING, I DIDN'T EXERCISE. The pool was closed AND it rained all day, so I didn't take Pheobes out or anything. Pah. I guess it was my lazy day. That's what we'll call it. I've decided to do a cleansing day for day 41. It's gonna be nothing but liquids. We'll see how I do.... until then!