Whine, wine, unwind.

So.... the thing is, I haven't been doing anything healthy as of late. And on top of that, I've begun indulging on drinking wine whenever I need to unwind... (which is quite often lately!) I freakin LOVE the feeling of having a glass or two of wine, relaxing on my couch, listening to soft music and blogging. Yum. FAVORITE. What I don't like, is that whenever I have an emotional moment, I turn to the ever dreaded "Spicy McChicken" from Mickie Ds. I LOVE this sandwich. It's like my evil NEMESIS!!! I totally got stood up tonight. NOT a great feeling. And what did I do? Well, it was a TWO mcchicken night. Only one glass of wine, but I started the night with two screwdrivers. Actually, I'd kill for a friggin cigarette right now, but that's another dirty habit I need to chuck. Oh, for dirty habits.

SPAGHETTI

Womans best friend. Seriously. At this moment right now, I can't think of anything more delicious! I just had some spaghetti with red sauce, sauteed mushrooms and kilbasa, (however you spell that) and, of course, a glass of wine. OH. MY. GOD. I have had the ingredients for WEEKS and just finally put them together. Tonight was the NIGHT, you know? It wasn't a lot. Just about a cup of spaghetti and probably about 1/2 c of sauce, by OH MY, that was SO delicious! I had a granola bar for bfast, and a turkey sandwich with cheese, lettuce, tomato, avocado (ABOCATHO!... AH, my old friend!!!) ....and grape jelly. Yes, I said GRAPE JELLY. Don't knock it til you try it, seriously. Putting jam/jelly on my sandwiches is my latest addiction. It all started with the turkey/cranberry sandwich from paradise bakery...(switch the rye bread out for a croissant and you feel like you've eaten sweet baby jesus. In a good way.) Anyway, I was craving one, but didn't have the mula, and I also didn't have any cranberry sauce. So I improvised. I've been addicted ever since.

OKAY PEOPLE!!! I've got some FRIGGIN AWESOME NEWS today. My cousin Stephanie just moved in with me! It's so funny how when you live with someone you love, it just instantly feels like home. I've lived in this apartment now for almost 6 months, and while it's been really awesome, it still felt like an apartment. After work, I came home, walked through the door and it smelled different. It smelled warm. It felt warm. It was all things good. I felt so good and welcome in my home! Like it was just waiting for me to be here....

Steph was totally passed out in her bed. Lol... but that's just fine! It's her home too, now. I hope she stays. Honestly, guys? I'm kind of a biotch sometimes. Okay, a LOT of the time. No, seriously. I'm not really EVER very considerate; I think of myself a lot. But Steph has really sacrificed a lot to come here. I'm so glad she did, I just really hope it turns out to be everything she wants it to be. :) I can only hope good things for her, cause she's SUCH a great girl.

Okay..... so maybe I've had more than one glass of wine. More like 3.... okay fine, 4. Which means I'm purty.... whateva right now. I'll be so happy if I read this tomorrow and everything is spelled right!!!! I'm watching 'Fools Rush In' right now....HAhahahaha! OOOooohhh... that Matthew Perry!

BUMMER SUMMER(S)!!!!!!

Baby......IM BACK!

Hey ya'll, I hope you're in for some SERIOUS blogging!

Don't believe me?

Well...... I don't really blame you. My blog's been dead for over a YEAR now... yilch. I SUCK! But I've got some good news! Okay, I've got some FRIGGIN GREAT news! I've been going to the gym tues-thurs for THREE WEEKS STRAIGHT! No - I'm serious. My good buddy Angie-pants has been coming with me for motivation, and we've been faithfully speed walking/jogging our flat butts off on the treadmills! Not only that, but we've done some pretty intense arm/abs/leg work outs too! I'm super excited about ALL of this, but honestly? I haven't dropped a pound. NOT ONE POUND! And I think I know why.... :( I STILL EAT LIKE SHIT. So here we go again! I'm gonna have to read back through my past entries and figure out what I was doing, cause I don't remember much other than IT WAS WORKING!

SO! Strap up, ladies and gents and prepare to watch me TRANSFORM! I'm bringing this blog beast BACK TO LIFE!!!! Not that I'm looking that bad... I've got some SMOKIN curvies goin on.... but I think more curves and less LUMPS would be SUPER hot.

...YAY!
...I'm so excited....and isn't my hair getting long?! IT'S SO PRETTY!!! :)

Here we go again!

Okay guys, I have not written in a WHILE! It's because I'm a jerk. I have been doing NOTHING worth blogging about.... or so I thought! Last week, I didn't swim and I ate at a buffet and stuffed myself so full, my pants didn't fit for 3 days; but guess what happened? I lost another 1.5 pounds that week! I guess I'm doing better than I thought. :) I still have about 6 weeks until doomsday, (Alaska!) and I really seriously hope to be 15 pounds lighter in that time. So! Yet again... after taking a not so much needed break, I am climbing right back up on that wagon and buckling down! Smaller portions, less carbs, NO DAIRY! I've been eating the occasional cheese now and then, but I haven't had any cows milk, sour cream, yogurt or other forms of dairy for about a month! Maybe that's why I'm still losing weight...? In any case, I haven't given up yet, folks! I am on the radar again! Thanks to those of you who show support... 11 followers! Gettin up there! :)

Day 48: Can I get a HELL YEAH!!!!

Okay, so ummmm.... weigh day? YES! I was SOOO suprised! Cause I weighed myself at like, 4pm after I had eaten lunch AND cheated on my 'snack' of two mini bags of mini eggs....(girl scout cookies, mini eggs... it never ends, does it?!) I'm down 2.4 Ibs since THURSDAY!!! Can I get a HELL YEAH?! Woot!!! I'm so excited! And now I feel super duper bad for not swimming today. :( I actually only had the temporary pass to the YMCA and it expired on Saturday. They want a down payment plus first months, but I'm sort of addicted to saving my money lately, and I can't bring myself to pull the funds from my savings account, so I'll just have to wait until I get paid on Friday. Until then, I'll do walking and more Wii. Speaking of which, I did AWESOME at the Wii today. If anyone can beat my 866 spins on SuperHulaHoop, please let me know. I'll think you're lying, but we can most def have a hula hoop play off sometime. For shizzle. Eating wise I did supa dupa. Matthew and I did some paper mache masks today, and that was a lot of fun, but we had to go to the grocery store for some balloons, and (of course), it's easter season! And there are mini eggs EVERYWHERE!!! Gahh!!! Last year, I bought like, 4 monster bags, hoping that would last me until they were gone from all the stores, and I ended up eating them all in a week. THAT'S RIGHT. NO JOKE, and NO bueno, either. :( But this year, I was trying to avoid them altogether....until the balloons were in the same aisle. (EEeek!) So, the ginormous bags were on sale for like, $4 each along with the Robins Eggs, so I grabbed both bags, hardly thinking at all. It was totally like a reflex. Then, I saw the medium bags of mini eggs on sale for 2 for $6 along with the reeces eggs, which I ADORE as well, so I put down the ginormous bags and just picked out two of the mediums. Then, feeling SOOO bad about it, but knowing I just couldn't pass them by, I turn to find these teensy tiny single serving bags of mini eggs for just 2 for $1. Thank the Lord! He is kind, and he has mercy on me. :) I did grab 6 bags, but I put them all away (out of sight, out of mind, right?) And I'm so happy about the tiny bags because I'm less likely to tear open all six bags at once and eat them all; the bigger bags just make it so much easier to eat lots of them. :( So I gave in and ate two bags, but that's not so bad, I guess. Hopefull I can just AVOID them until after Easter. Anyway, breakfast was a bowl of the Bear Naked Banana Nut cereal and almond milk. For lunch I ate a delicious sandwich made of herb infused turkey, cheese and avocado. I also had apple slices dipped in pb. Dinner was just a pb & chocolate shake, but suprisingly, here it is 9pm and I'm still not hungry. YAY. I think it's the adrenaline of knowing I lost 2.4 Ibs this weekend. I'm so skinny. :)

Day 47

PAM!!! Thanks for your comment! It was so sweet, I read it like, 12 times before I wrote todays blog! Comments like yours are what keep me committed to my blog. I love you and your support....and you can tell BOB that he is TOTALLY missing out! :)

Weigh day today! WOOT!!! I'll post my 'success' (premature thinking is ALWAYS a good idea...) tomorrow. I did awesome yesterday. Started with a banana and water for breakfast. NOT ideal, but better than nothing, and I was running out the door... why, you ask? I'll tell you why! I went to church! GO ME! Hahaha... for the first time in almost a year, I went to CHURCH! It was actually awesome. The sermon was all about abortion and politics. A new church, with a pastor named Odor. Pastor Odor. Baha! But he didn't stink! He was great! I went to IHOP for lunch after, and I was SUCH a good girl this time, ordering a mushroom and spinach omelet (I didn't even eat the whole thing... it was HUGE) and a side plate of fruit. Half way through my fruit, my 3 yr old date started helping himself, so we shared it. Hahah!! It was cute tho, cause he kept saying, "Hey look! Another gwape!" And ate all my 'gwapes'. Then I teased him that he must not like watermelon, and of course, he then tackled all of those too. Hee hee....kids. I didn't eat dinner until like, 10 o'clock at night...(bad me...) but it was SOOOO good when I did! 2 oz of roasted pork tenderloin with roasted small potatoes and steamed broccoli. You know me... meat and potatoes are ALWAYS a treat! I didn't swim, cause the pool is closed Sundays and no park either...I'm a bad dog mommy. :( We're going on Wednesday no matter WHAT the weather is. I feel so bad!

Day 46

Eeeeghads! I had SUCH a good day today! For starters, TITO: I swam an extra FIVE laps. :) 35 laps in the pool today! WOOT! But I may have been a little lax on some of those laps, since it took me 50 minutes to do all 35. :( BAD, cause the pool is closed tomorrow. I should have swam 70 laps. Or 100! I got this new Bear Naked cereal/granola stuff with dried banana slices...SO GOOD! I had 2 bowls with soy milk, which only added to about 400 calories; and today I took a little trip to the local grocery store to get some magazines...(I've been doing some artwork lately...mainly collages for McKenna in the form of enormous envelopes)...and I happened upon the diet book section. There was a book swearing up and down that you can eat whatever you want (donuts, ice cream, pancakes, steak, BREAD), WHATEVER! As long as you eat it before 9am. It's called the 'BIG BREAKFAST DIET'. I'm all about eating tons of food, so I thought that might be the diet for me. But then I saw this book called 'Eat This, Not That: the Restaurant Guide' and it showed a really yummy looking burger that was 1100 calories, and then Red Robins Guacamole burger for only 600 cals! And it said to eat it! So? I was all.... 'Okay, sure!' :) But I didn't. I resisted...for then. I had it for dinner instead. Baha! But wait, I'm getting ahead of myself. I ended up going home and having 'the usual', but this time I had it on a whole wheat tortilla; OM-FREAKIN-G. For reals, It was sooooo good, guys. I almost cried. I LOVE sandwiches! Does anyone NOT love sandwiches?! So... I went on a date. This guy took me to dinner tonight, and I said, 'why not go to Red Robin?' ....I'm so bad. So we go to Red Robin. And I looked phenomenal!!! :) So Louis (our waiter) comes to take our order and I look over at my date, (remember: this is a FIRST date), and I say, 'I'm totally getting a burger. Is that breaking rules? The girls supposed to get a salad on the first date, right?' He started laughing and said, 'No, I think that's HOT!' Hahahaha!!! Thank God, cause I REALLY wanted that guacamole burger! Hee hee hee....